Sunday, October 22, 2006
jus praying that my appeal gets thru successfully.. life gets pretty shag nowadays..
i dunno wad im thinking.. but.. i jus cant stop thinkin of it.. k sounds abit cliche.. but.. sometimes.. its nt me that wan to think bout you jus tat things bout u jus keeps appearing.. hahs.. coincidental world.. sometimes i jus hope maybe like a note is left somewhr for me. sometimes i really wanna read ur mind.. cause.. not knowing e answer and still hoping for something.. yea it sucks.. hanging in suspense.. and sometimes i myself dun even noe wad im thinking is right.. i tot last time you knew wad i was thinking.. but in e end i found out u wun noe till i say..
a failure in relationships , im not a person tht noes how to xpress my feelings to someone i like.. i cant catch hints or wadsoever from a girl cause the only way i noe is that she tells me.. hahas.. might sound absurd but its true in life that in front of a girl u really like, i'm not myself.. lol.. not the same.. hahas.. u tend to stutter , dunno wad u're talking about and trying e best to make her smile but u realise u're not doing anything funny to make her smile and while thinking of wad to say next, she thinks that u dun wanna talk and the awkward silence comes..
i enjoyed walking with u, even not talking,, silence thruout, i enjoyed walking because of ur presence beside me.. i enjoyed lookin at u even though i dont dare to look into someone's eyes, be it close buddies / family.. e moment i look at someone's eyes my eyes wander off .. hahas.. i wanna protect you i wanna know you i wanna be with you..
but well.. reality is harsh.. somewhere in deep deep deep in my heart / brain.. i noe.. i really noe.. somethings cant happen, no matter how u want it or how u hope u have it... and knowing that im not at all good looking nor do i have a lean/muscular body though im dying for them.. maybe only at the most.. my height is higher than average? .. true as the saying goes look at the insides of a person not the outside.. but well.. i can say.. 99% of humans will use the outlook of a person as the first impression.. in another words.. the face / body of a person decides almost everything on the first look.. and almost all girls want their other half to be tall,dark,handsome, mr nice guy.
o lvls coming for my buds.. hope everything goes well for them..
shun shun li li~
hahas
and damnit.. my sun burn hurts.. lol..
anyone game for another round of tan on weds?? hehehe
What a feeling!
